Wish: To Be Fearless, Strong, and Unbothered.

I have been asking myself the same question a lot lately: What is it that I am so afraid of? I keep trying to delve into my psyche to find a way to relinquish myself from fear, I meditate so that I can find a way to transcend it, and suddenly - when I am… Continue reading Wish: To Be Fearless, Strong, and Unbothered.

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On The Nature of Pipe Dreams

Moving back in with my mother, and bringing my pet cat along with me, I had stars in my eyes and hopes that the cats would get along.  Most have told me that older cats don't really put too much energy into territoriality the way the younger ones do, and so I was hoping I… Continue reading On The Nature of Pipe Dreams

Prayer, Pathways and Second Chances (or “Whatever the Hell is In Store for Me Next”)

There once was a time where I knew where I was going in my life, of that I am sure. From those recently past days, I have notes and drawings and piles of self-wrought scripture, to follow without doubt as to the destination or the nature of the path I took.  Everything was crystal clear,… Continue reading Prayer, Pathways and Second Chances (or “Whatever the Hell is In Store for Me Next”)

Top Ten “Gotta Do’s” on my Bucket List

I have been giving some thought to it and at long last decided (Yes!) to create my bucket list. Mind you, this list is not an "At Least Get It Done Before You Die" List.  Rather, this is a "You Gotta Do This" list.  The point being to live my life to the fullest, and not… Continue reading Top Ten “Gotta Do’s” on my Bucket List

De-Escalating an Early Morning Fight

Yesterday morning I was awakened by yelling and brazen threats coming from the mouth of my elderly neighbor.  We'll call him George.  George has a habit of picking fights with homeless men and women who - every so often - will come around to sift through the dumpsters for cans and food. Now before we… Continue reading De-Escalating an Early Morning Fight

On Moving Back Home

I am - more than a little worried, though many tell me that I needn't be.  It's just something about being on one's own for the first time in one's life that breeds the kind of morbid hubris I am now struggling with.  Namely, do I return to live in my mother's home, do I… Continue reading On Moving Back Home

Social Isolation and the Mystery of Daily Programming

I'll admit it.  I woke up this morning and when I sat down to write a post for AKA.CLouise,  I had nothing.  In fact, less than no idea on what to write, I just didn't want to write.  I felt empty somehow, like I was missing something, and like I was meant to be somewhere… Continue reading Social Isolation and the Mystery of Daily Programming

Free-Write: Interview in the Valley

Driving through Topanga Canyon, and then onto Mulholland Drive, I could see why the area had become infamous for the subtly terrifying and the unreal. The place was gorgeous. If I could see a sunset everyday, as dazzling and disorienting as the one I had seen while driving along the switchbacks heading down into the… Continue reading Free-Write: Interview in the Valley

A Little Pep-Talk to the Self

It is often that I need to remind myself that I am worthy of happiness and that my being is not mutually exclusive from success.  After pulling myself from my graduate program, I have felt an almost constant urge to do more, to push myself harder, to be better than I am. Which sounds great,… Continue reading A Little Pep-Talk to the Self

Syllabi – The Treasure Maps of the Classroom

My experience with education has ranged from me having tutored, worked as a graduate teaching assistant, working as an SAT Instructor and of course, being a student myself.  One of the most important facets of the classes or tutoring sessions I have been fortunate enough to participate in, has been the syllabus. A road map… Continue reading Syllabi – The Treasure Maps of the Classroom